Sometimes, I wish there were 2 of me...

What a strange feeling.

I’m not sure what it means really.

I’m going home in about 5 months, and though I am happy about this, glad to be going back, I realize that I am also dreading leaving here. Sure, my job sucks, my apartment is the size of my old bedroom and the only decent meals I can eat are in restaurants. But I’ll miss the people. And the get-togethers. And all the fun and memories they bring.

I remember now, one of the hardest things when I got here was being on Facebook and seeing all the stuff going on back home that I was missing. All the parties, the Hot Streak’s concerts, the gatherings at Guiz’s house, Clo’s dinner parties… I kept thinking how I liked it here, but how I’d love to just pop back there for a few hours every time something was going on.

I hated missing out on stuff. And I still do.

But now, I’m thinking of going back home and seeing Japan from there, looking at the pictures and hearing about the good times and all the things I will be missing… And I know I will be wishing I could just pop back there for parties and gatherings. I’ll regret not meeting the new JETs. I’ll regret not doing karaoke all night. I’ll regret leaving all the blossoming friendships I’m making here. And so much more…

But at the same time, I don’t regret my decision of going home. As much as I love parties, as much as I love my friends here, I can’t survive another year here with only those things to appreciate and look forward to. I miss my bed, my home, my city, my favorite foods, my hang out spots, my friends, my family….

It’s kind of a weird lose-lose but win-win situation at the same time. Paradoxical, kinda. Or maybe not.

Anyways… when is it that they will invent teleportation, mmm?? Or maybe I should try to see that solar eclipse in Okinawa; with a little luck I’ll develop Hiro’s powers. And then I can even go back to all those parties I’ve missed while I was gone… yeah! And hell, I’d even take Nathan’s power. Lot less fast, lot scarier and probably kinda cold but it’d do. Or I could do with the power of being at two places at once. Though I wonder how that one would work…